what did make u change?

truth

wrong belongs to human. right belongs to God.

wake up

in life, we all ever make mistakes. wrong steps, wrong decisions, wrong thoughts, even wrong feeling.

relationship.
how did it begin?
how could it end up just like that?

my first relationship is the biggest mistake of my life.
wrong steps, wrong decisions.
everytime i look back to that time, all i can feel is nothing but guilty.
it was like when you think you have no other choice because you think you dont deserve to get better since you're not one of the best. trust me if one of you ever had this kind of thought inside your head, just throw it away. everyone is deserve to get the best. even the worst person in this planet.
things didn't work.
he couldn't gave me what i need.
then i looked for what i need in someone else.
person number 1... zero.
person number 2... bullshit.
then i dont know how n when come person number 3.
friend. then bestfriend. he was the person who knew me even before i told him whats in my mind. at that moment i think i found what i need. but that euphoria feeling blinded me from seeing the reality that there's a super huge wall that we both cannot destroy, climb or do anything to make it gone.

the moment when i mostly spent my time to think about what i face, what we both faced, i met this person.
it was like i try to passing through the huge crowd, impossible to pass through.then he just suddenly came and lift me to see what kind of crowd that i was trying to pass through.

reality. it's the first thing that he showed me.
present. real. more than just words.
for a moment, i feel uncomfort to leave that dream.
but slowly i know it's time to wake up.
it's morning already. and he's the alarm who awake me.